late night (early morning) thoughts

so it is officially 2:32 am and i am still awake

. . . unfortunately

as i lay in bed wide awake i am trying to figure out why my eyes are refusing to shut

i keep telling myself that i have a serious problem 

and that i should probably go see someone about it

but when i look away from the dark celling 

and towards my desk i see something that i regret. . .

a venti cup of joe with a dark logo on it that says starbucks

thats when i remember the five dollars i spent

thats when i remember the 8 pm run

thats when i remember the long list of overdue homework assignments that i have

and just then my mind begins to race. . .

another long list forms, and ideas about things to do this summer (random) begin to form

right then i want to inject myself with some sort of brain-slower-downer

thats when i remember why that cup was five dollars instead of my normal four and half

two extra shots

and thats when i begin to hate myself

for those of you who dont know me very well. . . i have a serious problem

i love coffee :)

but as i have learned tonight, coffee does not love me

because if it did, it would let me sleep!

as of right now, this morning, 2:40 am, friday april 18th, 

I AM GIVING UP COFFEE 

take that back. . .

I AM GIVING UP CAFFEINE!

keep me honest O Lord

and let me sleep tonight

amen